⋮ ⌗ Always ‧₊˚♪ ₊˚⊹ ᵗʳᵃᶜᵏ ² hi! for anyone who doesn't know me, I'm star/Orla and this is track 2 of my album 'i think i try too hard'! I'm so exited to share these songs with you so enjoy! <3 · · ─ ·♪· ─ · · I wrote this (and a lot of other songs on this album) about a situation I'd had with a group of girls from my old class. I don't really know why I chose to be friends with them of all people but once i was 'in' their friend group I became especially 'close' with one of the girls and I didn't realise at the time but she treated me horribly. She manipulated me, guilt tripped me, Blamed practically *everything* on me and I lost SO much confidence and SO much time because of her. I'm not even overexaggerating when I say it went on for over 3 years. I only began noticing recently how badly that effected me recently to be honest, but at the time I always pushed people away when they tried to help. I wish I hadn't though because even now I feel like I'm not 100% better. · · ─ ·♪· ─ · · I apologise for the long rant haha, there is a lot more things she's done but I try not to dwell on it too much considering she was having a hard time as well, I just think she didn't deal with it well though and that's not her fault. feel free to vent here as well, it's a safe place <3 · · ─ ·♪· ─ · · I've actually preformed this one like 3 times on stage lol, all of them were really awkward though lmao (lowkey in love w/ new ending ;-; ) · · ─ ·♪· ─ · · Enjoyy! -Orla · · ─ ·♪· ─ · · Lyrics: All my time had to be spent with you, I didn't really get to choose, cause whatever you said people would always believe you, It didn't really matter if you were telling the truth, I was always the bad guy, I guess I got used to it after some time, I wonder if you regret what you done, or if you'd still do it for fun. But it was always you, oo, oo, oo. it was always you that I ran too. the problem was always me, ee, ee, ee. I think you know what I mean, ean, ean still it was always us, us, us, us, but it was always me that 'messed things up' I don't know why you dragged me along, you were clearly sick of my little song, still I chased after you, was it the power you liked? the ability to tell me what to do? But it was always you, oo, oo, oo. it was always you that I cried too. the 'mistake' was always me, ee, ee, ee. I think you know what I mean, ean, ean still it was always us, us, us, us, but it was always me that 'messed things up' I messed it up! I messed thing up, (she messed it up, she messed it up, she messed it up, she messed it up, she messed it up, she messed it, up she messed it-) I messed things up.
