hey. so I have some important news you guys should know. - first of all, my motivation is low i'd literally be so inspired and confident on a project, and then a week later i'd feel so defeated and have like zero desire to make anything. that's exactly why NR2 took 1.5 months. and it wasn't because it was high quality and took time. mid-way working on the project, i got very burnt out and could genuinely not work on it. i would get extremely bored when working on it for ONLY 5 MINUTES!!! and that lasted for like 3 WEEKS BTW!!! and to be honest, i feel like i've been slacking on every project I make that actually took time. this is probably why some of my filler projects would blow up more than my main ones. whenever i tried to make something that took time, i'd procrastinate a lot. many reasons for this is... 1. i'd get distracted a lot 2. sudden demotivaton hits 3. i wouldn't get much return in the end anyway 4. other stuff in my life getting in the way i think i'm getting better at that and starting to procrastinate less, but it can still happen - secondly, i feel like i suck at scratch this is kind of why i cancelled NR. it was way too stressful for me, and i never considered it being my "best work". and now that i think about it even more... i feel like I've never made anything im truly passionate about, besides maybe scratchflix. NR was SO stressful to make and i was sick of working on it, so i would always end up rushing it! same thing with CW episodes! i'd procrastinate whenever i had an opportunity to! and when i'd start getting bored, my brain would just try to find an excuse to not work for the day. and the pressure of knowing that everyone is waiting on you, the guilt of not being productive enough, can stress me out. - and the final third thing, my life has been horrible. i can't really explain to you what's happening in my life, but you should know that im not doing well. a lot of it is why my PC took so long to come, and why i procrastinated more often, its cause i wasn't in the mood due to how harsh my life was. - CONCLUSION so this begs the question, do i quit..? ...absolutely not! i might need to take more breaks and focus on other things in my personal life, but i am NOT leaving any time soon! scratchflix might be delayed by a few days, but i'll AT LEAST try to share it before april so that imaginary project 3 isn't the first thing shared in my main since like 8 months. ill also probably need to get a new computer at least next year because its a dell... and it simply does not have enough power to create GIANT projects like CW. so unfortunately i don't think CW can come back in 2026, maybe early 2027? so for now, expect shorter, smaller animations so i don't get burnt out. and less effort projects on my main. thank you for reading, understanding and all of the support you guys gave me along the way. and i'll see you until scratchflix.
