before you interact. i’m very depersonalized. i’m gonna be bland sometimes and try to match your energy sometimes, because there isn’t much “me” left. i keep a bunch of accounts. lutka is a persona i’m trying on. it could stick or this account could go inactive after a week. it’s not something i do out of malice, i just don’t who i am and keeping multiple accounts like this is just how i test how i want to be perceived. they’re not secret, just ask about them. i have no internal concept of love or gender. i was manipulated for several years. i’m accustomed to analyzing behavior for any sign you’re going to harm me. it’s habit, not a solid belief everyone is going to harm me.
