I haven’t posted anything in a long time and have been inactive for a while. Scratch has been a huge part of my childhood, I would be on here everyday and especially involved in the OTA/DTA etc. community. I first joined in 2020, and my art has improved a ton since then. But, I’ve been in a block; I don’t know where I want to go with my art style. I really like the cute cat aesthetic and offering for designs on OTAs, but as I’m older now I’m thinking about options in the future. I possibly want to have a webtoon someday and make fan art of fandoms I’m in. But as I draw cats I need to learn how to draw humans and correct anatomy- basically relearn everything, which has been frustrating because basically all my progress with drawing cats is going to be for nothing. I either have this cutesy cat art style, or a semi realistic human art style. And obviously those clash. So I’ve been torn and while I’ve attempted drawing, it’s hard because I’m constantly surrounded by my sibling and friend who are much better than me. This makes me compare everything I try drawing to theirs and I feel like I’m back to the same level as those teachers who say they can’t draw while doodling on the whiteboard. Who So now as much as I like looking at OTAs and cute designs, I feel like none of it will be for anything anymore- like what am I supposed to do with them now if I move on to a human art style? I really miss being on scratch, and it feels so weird just to drop it after being so active on here for so long. But I feel like now I have to choose and “lock in” with drawing humans. While I love drawing cats in my current style I don’t think I can continue. Who knows, maybe I could have two separate styles- one for cats and the other for humans. But It feels like my connection to this site is just gone now, and that’s lowk depressing for me considering how much I loved being on here. I miss the times on my old accounts when I could draw just for fun, not worrying about how it looked posting it. But now it’s like a flip switched on my brain, and now I’m overly aware of how bad every piece I make is. I just want to feel the fun I used to feel again while drawing
