Okay so in this projects i will analyse two of the lines in episode 19 of tpot and what i think they mean narratively rather than what one actually meant. “You and I are the same pencil” Both of them are really lonely and they both coped with that in not really the best ways and both of them have sorta became angry and sad. Tbf one never had any friends like ever and she was alone for basically the whole time. Ofc she had three but that was kinda short lived. She messed up with her and ended up getting isolated again. For Pencil, she used to have a lot of friends. She’s basically had friends her whole life, minus the exit but she and braceletty and david probably bonded a bit. And she shows care for Braceletty multiple times so yeah. (i know she was so surprised) then she ends up rejoining tpot and the friends she had before hate her and she didn't have any of her exitor friends and no freesmart. So she sorta paints the narrative for herself that no one cares about her when Donut and Golfball do actually care about her. Even Pen cares about her bro. But she also HATES change and is still caught up with thinking about her old friends and she just wants everything to go back to how it used to be. She doesn't want to be alone again like how she was in the exit. And when she needs support from people she either gets isolated or ignores the support she is getting and isolates herself. She also will not admit her weaknesses or that she was wrong. L accountability. They both feel betrayed by their friends and they don't want to be alone anymore. “Its too late for me, but its not too late for you” OKAY OKAY so this line is why I think Pencil is going to get a redemption arc but one isn't. Jdjwfjiejfpojfpjogrjiorjgjergjrjigrejpejpjigrjgiojigejiogjigjrgjjnjgnejn jrgipjerpgjrpjge in order for someone who is extremely mentally ill, especially if it's because of loneliness, to get better, you shouldn't isolate them more. You have to be there for them and help them see what they did wrong and let them change their ways. Of course this does not mean that it is the responsibility of someone they have hurt. Ice cube and book are completely justified and not in the wrong for rejecting Pencil. Actually I think Book handled it really well, telling Pencil how she found new friends and how Ice Cube forgave her because she gave her space. For One, this didn't happen. She made a mistake by killing Three and this made everyone scared of her. So they isolated her more. FOR 14 YEARS. This of course only made her more mentally ill and angry. Wow! Four you really messed up this time! :D One never got any support or sympathy. I mean she had a conversation with three and three listened to her so there's that but that was before she killed three. And all the other numbers were PAINFULLY ignorant about how lonely she was and how much she felt left out. I feel like if one was able to properly communicate that and had a verbal crashout after three told her to go hangout somewhere else instead of killing three, like 70% of our problems could be solved but that's not what happened lol. Also it's not like she could go find any other friends. Firstly, there is literally no one on the planet who would talk to her and secondly, she got locked in the freaking moon for 14 years with NOBODY else AT ALL. For Pencil, things were better. Things really aren't too late for her. She hasn't done anything completely irredeemable and her old friends still care about her. She, of course, doesn't know this and she also thinks her actions are completely justified even though they aren't and they are just making things worse but still. People care about her even if she doesn't think so. Match is so determined to find her even after she hurt her. She’s hurt everyone yet Match still doesn't want her to feel alone and get worse. This is why Match is the GOAT. I love Match. She is really empathetic and forgiving. I love her. ANYWAYS- I think Match will be one of the people who is there for her. She just needs support from people after the EXIT because that was traumatizing for her and she got zero support from her friends, even going as far to hate her so she just feels incredibly alone. Unlike one, she has people who care about her and a path to not be isolated if she could just choose to try and improve herself. It’s now just up to Pencil.
So yeah I think she’s gonna be redeemed and realize the error of her ways with the help of her friends either her friends from the past or the present Bubble Ruby and Match. OR, like, a combination of that. They might all become friends again but like only if Pencil is willing to acknowledge how mean she has been and stop hurting people. Because Pencil, again, will not take accountability and she views it as an attack. (Hide and seek episode) Also, again she hates change. But I still think it is not too late for her and she will be redeemed before the story ends. Also I think she has already realized that she did *something* wrong with her friends. lemme know if you think i go anything wrong or if you have any additional thoughts. please i am begging you i need someone to talk to about this. i think i lost the plot there somewhere good luck reading this hahahhahaha sorry if if this is confusing ahfnfjnfsef0fejwijfi
