This is a yap about pencil and if she is justified or not in her actions towards four and her team and book and seasonal shift an' stuff. I feel like she definitely has a reason for it and I can understand why she would do that but she just handled everything in the worst possible way. She keeps fixating on going back to the past or her old friends instead of looking to the future and trying to make amends by taking accountability and making new friends and connections. I mean she is kinda?? Trying to replace freesmart with cloudyay with the cloudyay supervan and telling golfball to activate the elimination prevention plan so there's that but she is still acting really mean to them and she is kinda acting stupid. She is so focused on winning that she refuses to look at the bigger picture or actually do the best strategy. ( ahem.. hide and seek episode and seasonal shift…) I think she is just generally kinda stupid and emotionally unintelligent. ALSO in the EXIT she only really had one goal: escape. And now her one goal is still basically avoiding the EXIT. I mean it would be hard to move on from a goal that you have for SIX YEARS so she can't move on to other things. It also doesn't help that she is back in a competition instead of actually taking a break and recovering and getting support like Match did. So now she’s mean and stuff. She also is incredibly angry at Four if you couldn't tell. She wants revenge >:( (ice cube era fr) She kinda blames him for everything bad that happened with like the exit and stuff and tbf it is his fault but she still is not handling her emotions in a healthy way. Making your abusers suffer will not accomplish anything. It will just make more suffering. What she needs is to make new friends on her team and try to be a better person and NOT be joining another competition so soon. She is not justified but i can see her reasoning and she is horrible at handling her emotions <:
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