!!BLOOD WARNING!! So yeah, I feel like a lot of people don't know that I have actual feelings. I'm not accusing my friends. I know they have been having worse problems than me and I'm alright with them crying on my shoulder but sometimes I wish I could cry on theirs. But each vent I let out, no one ever replies. Even after a week, I have no response. That's why I don't really vent that much online. That's why I have been neglecting my account. My life is fine, everything's okay. But sometimes I don't know. Listening to Banshee has already made me feel much better. And I feel like I'm just pathetic for venting like this lol. The blood in my drawing symbolizes my feelings wanting to flood out of my veins and be expressed. But I let it only drip slowly. One by one. I don't want to bother anyone about this, but I also want someone to acknowledge me. I just sound like a selfish brat, don't I? I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all this. I can't help but suppress my feelings and laugh and smile. Behind every XD and lol, I do feel happy. Of course I do. I feel happy for each of my friends. Every success. Every party. Every joy in their lives. And when they start to crack, I'm there to help them. I'm not crediting myself, I'm just saying that I'm there. I'm always there. If I can't reply, I'm there in spirit. I don't wish anything bad about them. Ugh, lol.. I feel like my friends aren't my friends. Signs. Hints. I can't find them, because they're so mixed and my stupid mind wants to believe in a ridiculous fantasy. I try to separate because giving your heart to a fake one just exhausts you. But I can't. My heart can't do it. I hate it. I hate this. I hate me. Me. Me. Me. I don't even know if I'll be able to tell my true friends from the snakes. How? I'm talking so weird, right? I'm sorry again. Let me bleed in silence and let my heart beat for my loved ones.
!!BLOOD WARNING!! Art: @BeeDragon2013 Music: You're what you fear in me - Banshee (love her music <3)
