Vent | V Recently, my parents banned every website ever to have existed on my iPad. This includes school related content. Scratch. Even my favourite poo joke website. Everything gone in a blanket ban. I can’t even access simple resources. This is because they caught me doodling and playing chess when I was supposed to be dealing with the mountain load of homework (not school related). I find it impossible to focus when doing that, and I get punished very harshly because of it. Yesterday, my parents screamed at me, saying I destroyed family relationships and kept on comparing me to my apparently ‘better’ irl friends, saying that ever since I’ve hit puberty I’ve been ‘rebellious’ and started having my own opinions. They also complain about me having small, occasional outbursts when I really don’t want to talk to people. They think it’s abnormal for someone my age, and keep saying I’m a mentally undeveloped teenager. I don’t know how to deal with this. They also complain about me being very insecure, when it is completely their fault. The moment I have the tiniest bit of confidence about something, they just laugh at me, causing my self esteem to drop further. They don’t support any of the hobbies they didn’t force onto me, like art, chess and reading manga. They complain I wasn’t interested in them when I was little, like 5. That was over half my life ago. I’m just stuck in this endless illogical loop of my family being peaceful one second and then a complete war zone the next. My mum now forbade me from borrowing manga from my school library. They say I was better behaved when I was 3. That’s because I didn’t have my own opinions at that age. Most people my age think home is a break from school. At this rate, school is a break from home. At home, it’s normally a normal family. The moment I do something I’m not supposed to, like doing my freaking homework out of order, everything tips over. I’m permanently banned from basic messaging apps. If I get caught in an emergency, it’s their fault. I honestly don’t care anymore.
Me And I might be taking a long break from scratch. Sorry if I have any incomplete stuff. Ever starting high school, I’ve been so busy I can’t even get any fun these days. I feel like no one in my family cares… they just complain about their lives.
