this is an update on how I'm doing. I have kinda been demotivated recently tbh. irl I'm struggling with math with now I know a discriminatory teacher as they refuse to treat me like others as when other that are more like her are watching things playing around its fine. the second I in my own corner alone do it for a second I get in trouble and this has been going on for a while. it has gotten worse recently too. as typically my friend keeps me on track and motivated to do work and anything but she is injured and still goes to school but in that class she cant walk over to my seat so I have to sit all alone while everyone laughs. oh yeah and irl too everyone still makes fun of me. they all hate me. the weekend was meant to improve my mental state at the cost of 2 days of relaxing but instead my father brought me somewhere I hate that I still pretend to like for his sake and did more of our DND campaign with more unfair places like a place where you were supposed to play our characters, if we played them they die, and if we didn't or had one that didn't follow the theme they still can die at the end. I lost my favorite DND character I prepared for that campaign. I get him doing that is nice but he did it wrong even. I guess me not liking it is part of this as well I DONT KNOW... finally another reason I have been demotivated is the fact I rarely finish things and normally have to do things alone and when I release something I like it gets nothing or something I spend time on nothing. so if I am offline a bit more then usual know this is a bit why and I'm sorry my mind is slipping there's not much I can do
