Im scared. Im scared that if i ever say anything about: my music taste, my sexuality, and more to my family then they would make fun of me and shame me for ¨being wrong¨. My whole family, uncles, aunts and cousins are straight and i am bi. Im scared even about telling YOU guys this info, I dont think ill ever tell them all. i used to be bullied in school all the time when i was younger and that really leaves a mark on you after dealing with that for SEVEN. YEARS. maybe thats why im always paranoid. I dont even know if im ¨he/him¨ anymore, more of a ¨ he/they ¨ now. Its so confusing... Im just not ready to deal with that and i wont ever BE ready, My dad would definitely hit me for ¨doing something wrong with my life¨ my mom wouldnt look at me the same if i did, and my big brother... HOO BOY I DONT WANT TO KNOW. My sister would support me till the end tho. I hope some people can relate with me here; Im always expected to be perfect and never mess up, when i DO mess up I get that disappointed face. Im too clingy with my friends and im scared that if I lose them then I wont know what to do in my life. I have attachment issues with people in real life and online. Its such a problem with me but.. atleast i try to keep them safe, thats good right? i dont even know at this point... I dont think things will get better anytime soon. ... I´ll work on things later
