Kinda a vent ig

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.・゜-: ✧☾　☽✧ :-゜・..・゜-: ✧☾　☽✧ :-゜・. Its js like I'm only one person for some reason I'm like the therapist friend but the moment I have a bad day somehow I'm not allowed to have one, everyone acts like I'm forced to be bubbly or wtv. ♩♪♩♬ ♬♩♪♩ Js know however hard I try to be what everyone wants I never can be and never will. And js bc ur upset doesn't mean others cant be too ur actions have effects on others too I'm a sensitive person ig so words can actually affect me other ppl being said makes me sad too if ur happy I'm happy ur happy. Im only one person at the end of the day I can only handle so much before I get upset too I'm hman also I rlly try my best to be nice and stuff but some ppl r rlly draining and like ppl always lying on my name like I did NOTHING 2 u why r u bothering me js bc ur upset doesn't mean u need to infect everyone with ur sadness I js wanna say like if someone makes ONE mistake they are only human; so if I'm only human I make mistakes I cant and wont ever be perfect, but I try my best but some ppl are js never satisfied and I just don't have the energy to be drained from online ppl always just degrading and belittling me for no reason if they have no reason to be rude; then why? Why is it always me that gets the hate when ppl who ACTUALLY do super bad things js get a slap on the wrist but I get yelled at, cursed at, or just hated, over small or INVISIBLE mistakes. half the time Idek what I did but I still get hate and haters for no reason like I don't understand why at all Im trying my hardest but its not enough and never will be I'm sorry I'm not enough for you but I js cant be perfect I go through enough *and am going through enough* in person to have to be dealing with haters and 'friends' online. Its like the moment I'm not of use to you, you kick me to the side and hate me Its not my fault you never considered me a friend You swear you never liked me until you remember ur other friend isn't available to vent to. The moment I'm of ur benefit you love me and call me 'the best' but the moment ur upset and I try to lighten the mood then I'm the bad guy Im trying my hardest to not crash out on everyone, bc guess what it would be hypocritical to do that. Its not anyone else but my fault for allowing these ppl to hurt me but I cant help myself I js don't know how to say no and it ends up hurting me even more than it would them Bc no matter how much you mean to me I'm always your doormat and I'm tired of being stepped all over. Everyone deserves respect. Also I made this whole vent but ik there is ppl out there with WAY more problems and way worse so im not gonna be moping around like some ppl I js bottle it up and carry on ☆.｡.:* .｡.:*☆.｡.:* .｡.:*☆.｡.:* .｡.:*☆.｡.:* .｡.:*☆.｡.:* ☆.｡.:*