tw: fainting, panic attacks, also I dropped the typing quirk zorry :/ I hate my body I hate my face I hate my art I hate singing I want to go home, but I am home, I miss something I've never had. people always try to find the best in me their like "oh charz, your so smart!!" or "oh charz, your so funny!!" but I'm not. the only thing I like about me are my friends I want to go home I don't know what's wrong with me I hate my anxiety. I got told "how did you have a panic attack when you where talking infront of like 30 people?" I have a hard time with public speaking and I explaind that and that's why I have Sage (a stuffed animal that helps me calm down) and someone told me "Thats Charz for ya". ITS NOT JUST "THATS CHARZ FOR YA" THAT WAS A BAD THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME I COULD BARELY BREATHE I WAS SAD AND UPSET ITS ITS SO UPSETING THAT IM CONSIDERED "DRAMATIC" NO ME HYPERVENTALATING AND ALMOST PASSING OUT BUT NOOOOOO IM DRAMATIC OK SURE WHATEVER OH MY GODS.
