I feel like everything i’ve tried to be good at has been overshadowed by somebody i care about like when i thought i was the musical/good singer in the family it turned out i’m horrible at it and my sister is better- i don’t even feel like a good student anymore because of my sister’s grades and my friend’s grades and i want to live up to what people expect of me and i try to but i feel like there is always someone else who just has to push the bar higher up so i can’t reach it anymore. I get nervous when other people are better than me and i wonder if people dont care about me anymore because their better. Sometimes i even wonder what i’m good at because it always feels like everyone expects more of me. I really wish my parents would notice how i can’t even sleep anymore, and how i don’t feel safe sometimes, but i feel like they expect more out of my sister and i know that’s probably not true and i’m probably just dissapointing them and i know that if they read this they would be mad at me or even tell me none of this is true but they don’t know how i’ve been feeling about everything, about how i don’t like myself anymore or how i feel unsafe around everybody now. sometimes I hurt to the point where I feel nothing
i'm sorry I have emotions. don't post hate comments.
