Scratch. It’s probably one of the first forms of social media (if you can even consider it that) I’ve been a part of, and the main reason of my art career. This account was started with a slightly modified Scratch Cat, my delusional 11-year-old self, and plans for the future. At the time, Scratch was the platform for my creativity. I’m not feeling that creativity right now. I’m not feeling the inspiration to continue posting as frequently as I used to, and I barely have the motivation to even log in and keep refreshing for messages. If I’m being honest, the drive for me to post is mostly gone. I barely draw, I procrastinate projects I need to finish, and I no longer have the same spirit I did when I just made small projects with (admittedly, pretty bad) scripts and jokes. The pressure has grown for me to satisfy the 300+ gremlins I’ve accumulated for a while, but what I try to provide isn’t enough. Whatever post I work really hard on ends up not delivering, and projects I barely put effort into end up with the most views. It’s just really frustrating, especially if I put genuine effort into a project, and it just doesn’t get the appreciation I desire. Of course, I don’t want to just leave one day and abandon everyone who supports me. I appreciate and love everyone who’s supported me since the beginning, and some of the best friends I’ve met have come from Scratch. I don’t think I’ll be leaving anytime soon, but it’s definitely something I’ve considered. I think I have 3 options. Either I keep posting as usual (which is almost never) and do what I usually do, I take a small break (maybe a few days to a month at most) to collect myself and regain that artistic spark I need, or the most drastic option (and the most unlikely one): I leave Scratch and everything I have built behind. Again, maybe I’m being dramatic again; though, considering I’ve felt this way for a week now, I doubt it.
