ok uh, I was thinking to apologizing to others but idk if its worth it, I alr apologized to Asher I guess and idrk what to say to Mike. just want to say to stop going into my account and commenting stuff on every single one of my posts. I'd like to just be left alone. I don't care if u call me out anymore I alr had the trauma of last time from dex and this time I js. dont care. I know that the stuff I did was bad and everything but I've moved on from it and I'm in therpy and getting the help like u guys begged me to get. I don't understand why u have to bring this all up again when u told me to just stop and let it go. its like u had me do that for nothing?.. I already lost my irl friends to the point I'm alone in school. I barely have any friends anymore. and I've changed and I'm still am, um. that's an all I gotta say. I'm happy with my best friend Ever and etc. I've felt better sense I dropped you guys, I still think ab y'all but its not like a longing type its just. idk? I still miss my ex friend, I mean. I was literally friends with them for years. but there's nothing I can do. but seeing u guys all be back together while I'm over here being just..what I used to be shows that I am the problem. and I'm sorry. but there's nothing I can do go get back or anything so.. I have to move on. but I do miss Dexter, and all of u guys but I just cant do nothing anymore. plus Im still in therapy. and y'all like. HATE. my guts so. there's nothing I can do. even when I apologize. and everything. um. that's ab it, I hope u guys proceed to do better and um, happy late bdays to y'all and stuff, this is a kinda apology I guess before I actually leave and do my own thing without u guys. but if u guys come into my DMS later on and trying to start again, well idk, well see if y'all try I'm not there yet I just don't like when you guys say I faked sh and more when u guys literally..saw /refuse. to see the literal scars on my thighs. it kinda hurts. and yeah ik its gross but the amount of times I see "shes faking cvting!" makes me wanna prove. so uh. bye I will be moving to a diff account to start fresh on here in the future. A. I'm sorry and I'm glad ur ok now. M. idk what to say ik u hate me and stuff but I just want to say I'm sorry and idk.. D. I'm sorry for everything too. u don't have to worry ab me anymore. and more I'm sorry..
and I'm still not gonna give up those chars I have sorry, I alr have a animated series I have out so um. I don't care if u use them or others I just want to be left alone with my chars lol, (yes ik the ocs aren't originally mine. yes u designed them and etc I'm not saying I full on made them. you lended them to me and let me have them. even as far as transferring them to me.) u lended them to me to have..u don't even draw them? u told me the do's and don'ts, and way more. and leave my mom alone bc she doesn't like anyone anymore. I don't like how ur trying to turn my own family against me. I talked to ever and uh. shes on my side too. and I had to stop her (my mom) to going to you. bc u have kids and don't need to be brung into some old teen drama. you have a life. you already cussed me out. and saying ur gonna send stuff to my moots and threatening me. just leave me alone. I cannot take the effort to actually change and get the help u guys want me to get if this keeps happening. and doing this to me in my worst mental state.. so just- ignore me pls. stop being against me bc idek what I been saying that's how f##ked I am. but I hope u guys are better and im taking ashers words as in like not holding much grudges and just try to be better. and I'm nothing but sorry bc I'm tired of this.. I saw Dexter change I saw Asher and etc and now its my turn. bc my parent has also talked to me ab just doing better or when I grow up this will turn into me getting into jail or something. so um. yea bye and I hope u guys get better and continue ur guys's life. I'm done fighting I'm just going to ignore the things ab me and try to grow from my mistakes. I hope/wish to not be seen as such a villain in ur guys's eyes anymore. I wish everyone is okay from the damage I've done to them and continue to grow. I didn't know u weren't talking to Asher but u guys following each other and etc isn't rlly..helping you.. I'm just trying to make a change. Ever told me to just forget and ignore everyone and try to change. and I understand why u guys want to do these things to me and ruin my life and etc. bc I'm the problem. and I'm trying to fix it. I understand I got to the point u guys have to use violence to me. I wish to become a better person again and to be liked..again. goodbye. I'll be continuing to get my help and hang out with my support people and do my art...
