slap that green flag 777 times "It's always so cold and wet outside. it rains almost four times a week. on other days its just gray. I hate the rain. it reminds me of him. I don't want to remember him. even in my dreams I'm not safe. he throws me across rooms sometimes or ruins me. but Felix doesn't. he never once did. in real life or dreams. why am I like this? he has a girlfriend I'm just a friend to him. I wish I could tell him. I wish I could tell him how he broke me and how he's the only thing that keeps me going sometimes. I wish I could tell him about Ash. but what if he finds me weird for liking guys? i wish he knew so I could lift this stone off my chest. I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this why do I love him so much?" "̵̝̮̗̮̔̒̃̓͂̓͊w̵̱̺͍̠͂̔͗̈̍̇̐͂̕h̴͈͓͖͆͛̔̔̈́y̸͚̗̜̿̂͑͜ ̶̻͚͋̓͐̓w̵̩̰͎͉͕͖̚h̷̬̔̑̈͂y̶͔̮̘͙̓͗́ ̶̨̛̹̝̘͈̲͓̤̤͙͗̽͊̆̀̕͝w̴͉̱̖̝͔̪͒́̽̂̊͝ẖ̴̨̩̠̱̪͗͛̅̄y̴̨͍̳̯̪̺̰̭̣̳͆͑ ̶͈̞̺͈͓̝̼̭͌͜ẅ̸̧̤̯̱̖̺́̈́̓͌ĥ̷̢͈͓͚̝̯̥̖͙̘̒̍͊̋y̷̮͔̺̤̘͇̞͙̫̌̌̉̽̍͜ ̶̛̜̀̈͒͆̈́̓͘͝w̸̦̦͂h̸̗͐̃̀͌̎̈̿́͝ỹ̵̢̘͕̦̭̭̭̜̓́ ̸̢͖̝͕͉̥̖̱̀̿̄̓̅̑́́ͅI̶̟̓̓̎̉̐͘͘̚ ̷̭̯̠̤͓̻̪͖͆͘͠h̵̰͕̪̟̹͕͌͊̆̽̄̕͘͝a̶̗͔̣̰̘̠͋͑̄̐̒͠t̸̬̲̲̝̮͕̯͚̪͐̀̒̌́̅̾͌͒͜ë̶̛͉̫̠̈̓̏̉̋̈̄̒ ̸̢̜̗̦̏̔̈̎́͛͒͊̏͑ṯ̷̨͉̲͙̺̈́̄̅͐̆͌̉̕h̷̫̬͑̕ḯ̸͈̤̦͖̦̗̝̑͛̆̾͗́̀͜͠ṡ̴̠̹̳̼̞̐̏ ̶̜̹͎̊́͒Í̸̞̘̈́́͘ ̷̨̞̘̞̳̕͝h̷̨͎̣͈̰̲̤̺́̔̏́̒͜ͅả̷͍̖͌̄͘t̴̫̟̘͇̍̓̃͜é̷̡̧̟̯̠̖̺̼̔̑͂̄̃͆͑̇͘͜ ̶̛̹̹̝̟̦͚͉͓͗̈́͐́͑͜͜͝͝͠t̸̘̝͈͕̓͋̍͒̂̔̅͛͜h̷͖̟̮̽̄̉̋͠i̷̪̠̺̬̜̖̰̳͋̅̀̐̈̈́̂̈́̑ͅs̸̰͇̻̯̭̩̔̍̄ ̵̖̼͇̞̰͊̑̐͊̊̆͌̋͘Į̶͖̺͕̯̟̺͖̭̘͋ ̶̻̟̗̜̺͇̟̪̯̎̾̄́͋̕͝h̷̛̛͈̀̃͛̓̄ȃ̸̖́t̴͚͎̼͈̝̮̺̏͗̓̌͘ẻ̴̢̛̜̘̬̟̜͓͘ ̵̀̓ͅţ̶̨͈̠̫͓̟͎̼̗͌̿͂͂͠h̴̘̲̗͂͗̐́̈́̔̀̀į̴̙͚̝̩̣̜̊́̑̀́̀̀͆͒ͅș̵͕̘̩̖̉͋̒̾͛̔̒̎͝"̴̛̭̙̝̿̀́̅͋͗̿̕͠ mah one and only gay son having a mental breakdown
song is my love mine all mine by mitski
