┈┈┈┈ -ˋˏ ༻✧༺ ˎˊ- ┈┈┈┈┈ "It's not what you are, It's just what you did Don't hang up the phone, I love you to death Eternal return Eternal return Eternal return Eternal return" Tw for death and grief btw -- If the moonlight was his savior, where was it now? Only opalescent stars blessed the quiet forests, reflecting off of the malachite in his eyes. How beautiful things were when they only lingered, for eternity was the grayness of his fur and bones and body, which would live forever. His body would be flowers and ash and all of the breathing and destructive things in life. Yet his soul was only temporary, Crocus decided, which made it beautiful. It was beautiful, wasn't it? It had to be. Stars, he hoped it was. He really hoped it was. Crocus' limbs became numb, and his heart was almost joined into the cycle of living. Oh god, he didn't want to d!e. Though, in good nature in balance, he figured no one really wanted to. Crocusfaith found himself more satisfied with life than he would have hoped for, even if it had grown bittersweet in the fleeting moments. He had became old with the cat he had loved the most and guided many, though a hole in his heart burned with the worry that he would not be missed. He never really did belong in the place he loved, however much he rejected it. Crocus remembered how he had asked Hoppyflicker, when she was an apprentice, whether surviving or living was more important. The stars whispered now, beckoning Crocus toward the light. Finally, he was going to chose to live. And then the stars were silent, the world was silent, and he took one final breath. .. I... I don't even know what to say. My firstborn child is with starclan now after an unfortunate 20% elder roll I feel like writing this really makes it set in holy crap. Crocusfaith, you were an amazing, brilliant (and super buff) cat. Will I truly move on from him? ...... we'll see Thank you to @Boots-and-Kats , @_ruckus , @swiftfootcat , @Mapleshade1111 , @SilverSea12 , all of his kits, and many more who I'm blanking on lol; Y'all truly are what made his life so amazing, and I adore all of you as both roleplayers and people. Hopefully we can RP again soon! Crocus *clearly cough cough* will be going to Starclan And... that's all I won't be much online for a week or two as I greive lol Final stats - 100/7 || 88 ┈┈┈┈ -ˋˏ ༻✧༺ ˎˊ- ┈┈┈┈┈