I know this is pretty sudden and random but let me explain i've done a ton of stuff these past few weeks I'm not proud of. Half of which I did unintentionally and regret. I know I make lots of bad decisions, I'm "rude," I'm just so tired of it-i feel really just dead inside. Sure, I might be smiling and having fun but I don't really feel like myself anymore. Im stupid cause I keep failing at my studies, I'm just a big mess. I lose friends by being stupid, and I'm losING friends currently over minor things and I'm scared. Every day I come on here and I just waste my time instead of doing important stuff/focusing on schoolwork. Every day its just "Lily, wyd?" or "Lily, close it all the way shut!" (ref to my computer). Another reason I'm taking a break is just because I'm embarrassed. I'm embarrassed of basically every part of myself. I catch me saying stupid stuff that probably hurts feelings. And if you're reading this, its not just you its multiple people in my life. I'll explain more if I feel like I need to, which I probably will if my notifications just randomly blow up.. Love you all sm and i'll be back before may 10th I promise. XOXXOOO
