UPDATE 2PM: We're going to try and see if we can port all our progress over to Polytoria. If we need to rework the models, then that's fine. I'm fully willing to do so. I never wanted to have to make this. Fall was a for-fun project originally made by JD then as time passed, the rest of us joined the team and helped out. Roblox is now implementing updates where you have to: - Pay a subscription - Be ID verified - Have two step verification to be able to publish games. JD cannot age or even ID verify due to 2FA. None of us have IDs. None of us are willing or even able to pay for RB+ im tired. we're screwed. We literally can't keep making Fall. WHAT HAPPENED TO POWERING IMAGINATION? HUH? I HATE IT HERE, I FREAKING HATE IT HERE. i had finally found something that kept my attention, that made me happy and let me bond with my friends and everything was for NOTHING. ive been in a dissociative state for so long i cant even remember the last time i was able to be happy outside of discussing ideas with everyone regarding fall. i cant even remember the last time i was able to draw something that hadn't been sparked by fall. ive felt so empty for so long and yet the year i find a purpose, a reason to keep myself together, it gets torn away from me. ..i dont want to keep going anymore, but i refuse to hurt anyone by taking myself out of the picture. im tired. im really tired. im not able to express it well, but working on fall with everyone made me really happy and im glad i did. ... now im back to feeling empty and lost and broken. i want to scream, i want to cry, i want to sob, I WANT TO GO BACK. JUST GIVE ME MY CHILDHOOD BACK. LET ME BE A KID AGAIN, LET ME BE ABLE TO FEEL THINGS AGAIN. I DONT WANT TO SIT HERE TEARING AT MYSELF JUST TO BE ABLE TO FEEL SOMETHING. this also means other projects, like doctrine, arent even possible anymore. i want to go home, where did my home go, i want to go home.
i was sobbing the entire time while making this. all that effort, all that stress, all that learning and it was all for nothing. to my friends, to anyone i consider friends but may not fully consider me a friend, to anyone im even close with, im sorry if i start disappearing again. im trying to stay but its hard when everything i ever loved is actively crumbling. ill keep trying, i swear. i just need time.
