I'm taking a bit of a break because my dad just lost his mom. I just want to gather my thoughts because my brain can't even process that she's dead. I can't mourn properly because I refuse to believe that she's dead. It feels like a bad dream. I feel numb. Hollow. And I feel so bad about not crying like everyone else. My guilty conscience is killing me. But I promise you I am very sad about it. I guess the numbness is a subconscious coping mechanism I have. Idk and idc. I'll check my messages and stuff but prob won't reply if I dont feel like it.
Thank you for understanding <3 ill prob be back in a minimum of a day or 2 but if i feel rlly bad I could be gone for a week
