why is it so hard to make friends i swear i havent made one in actual years its been the same three people at my birthday party since i was like 12 I SWEAR IM LIKEABLE IF YOU GET TO KNOW ME!!! im just really annoying if you dont know me well!!!! just give me a chance!!!!!!!!!! or maybe i am jus annoying i talk too much a lot or i don talk. i also jus kinda talk about the same stuff over and over I HAVE A BORING LIFE!!!! EVERY DAY IS A DRAG!!!!!! EVERYTIME I TRY TO MKAE A FRIEND I FAIL!!! A NEW PERSON STARTED COMING TO MY CHURCH BUT THEYRE ONLY INTERESTED IN TALKING TO MY FRIEND!!!! it might help if my parents put my in ANY extra circulars that werent church related!!! i dont fit in with church people!!!!!!!!! no because two people have a crush on me but they dont even know me!!! i dont like being called by my actual name and i have a nickname for my friends to call me, but those two dont even know it!!! they barely talk to me!!!1 IM SCARED ILL NEVER FIND SOMEONE HWO LOVES ME FOR WHO I AM TO BE HONEST!!! I FEEL REALLY HATED BY PEOPLE WHO ARE CLOSE TO ME!!!!!!!!!!! ykw i don matter everyday i push through is one day closer to my andrew plush getting here he will be my friend. andrew plush will love me when no one else does no he wont :( andrew is my biggest opp. my pins of him keep stabbing me. the safety pin i had attaching the perler bead keychain of him popped open while my bag was on the floor and almost impaled my foot. the keychain keeps breaking off too. the pins of him my friend tried to make for me didnt print right. my clay andrew bean keeps falling off my nightstand and falling out of reach under my bed. a drawing of him i glued into my sketchbook peeled off. i don think he likes me :( anndreeeeewwwwww I REALLY FEEL LIKE MY FRIENDS HATE ME
