"Do you ever get a little bit tired of life? Like you're not really happy, but you don't wanna d!e Like you're hanging by a thread, but you gotta survive 'Cause you gotta survive" this part of the song is so relatable so I'm out of motivation and I'm taking a break because finals are coming up and I need to lock in so imma rant to y'all and section it out because its diff topics sensitive topics!! Friends --------------------- so basically one of my "friends" we'll call her Sadie (I'm calling them by their online names btw) she was telling ppl my other friends Lottie and nana secrets and they were obviously rlly upset (this all went down today btw) so lottie emailed the counselor to settle stuff. bcuz I wasn't there idrk what happened but basically Lottie and nana and my whole friend group in general are done being her friend. One of my other friends Sammy said how Sadie didn't rlly like her to begin with and that Sadie was jelous of how close nana and Sammy was and honestly I found that stupid. Another thing is that Sadie was mad at Lottie bcuz she was hanging out with Sammy a lot. On the bus I was talking to my friend kwamii and she said that she was never close to Sadie (same thing with me) so she didn't rlly care that sadie wasn't apart of the friend group anymore. I came home honestly a little mad and guilty because Sadie is going through alot and I didn't want her to commit bcuz of what happened. so I came home and looked through Sadies tt acc (I don't have tt btw so it was signed out in the browser) and I saw a post she made that said "I have a lot of friend but ik that in a room full of ppl none of them would pick me" which made me feel so guilty Sister -------------------- long story short my sister doesn't like me. she trusts her friends more than me, her own sister. shes basically kicking me out of a friend group and wont tell me anything that happens. she made a spreate gc with me. heres a email that i emailed my friends Abt the situation: "this is abt (my sister) and i dont wanna hear "omg bro why do u hate her sm?!" jst listen cuz i have another friend group and we have a group chat but this year since they in the same classes and I'm not they got closer and (my sister) had the nerve to make a group chat with everyone in that friend group but me. that hurt me and she says "we text more in (the group chat name) than (the group chat im in) and you have (another gc with a diff friend group) and im not angry" but its different cuz shes jst making me feel left outt" and adding on to that I told her how I felt AGAIN and she brushed off my feelings and completly igorned the stament I made and rlly hurt my feelings. well that kinda it ig and also here's my yt I'm more active on there so sub to me and also enter me shippingoc contest ( pls, thanks. that's all ty for reading :)
