My mind is a canvas That I paint over with bright colors. Pink, cyan, yellow. It's beautiful. Lovely. Simple. I accept it. My mind is a canvas, that I paint over again, When I find mistakes. Small imperfections fixed with small corrections, Blue, red, purple, orange, green. It starts subtly, but eventually... The canvas becomes a different painting entirely. Not worse, just different. It's still art. Functional. Passable. Detailed. I accept it. My mind was a canvas, That was once white, until I painted over it. Now I look at it, and I see... Bright clashing against dark, Brown swallowing green, Smudges against sharp lines That fight to co-exist. I want to accept it again. I try to leave it be. Instead, something twists inside. Confusion... and... Hatred. I don't remember it looking this way. I can't bear to look at it anymore. I raise my brush. Bright pinks, bright cyans, bright yellows. Deep blues, vibrant reds. Patterns and colors that used to work. I try to make it what it once was. But instead... It's disorganized, cluttered, and messy. A far cry from what it used to be. In frustration, I paint it white again. Then, Lavender, mahogany, spring-green. Then, Violet, bright orange, ocean blue. Faster, brighter, darker, sharper. Something more specific, more purposeful, But it's all become one haze of color. It looks wrong... The halfhazard edges, lines, and colors. They can only barely hide the fight of the stubborn layers upon layers of paint that lurk underneath. It can only barely hide the messy painting that was once beautiful. My hand wavers. It's no use. My weary brush clatters to the floor. I stop. The way I should have a long time ago. For the first time since forever, I leave it be. Nowhere near finished, but still Overwrought. Hello! I swear I'm okay! Though, this is kind of a vent. This is a poem I really love, and I have absolutely nowhere to share it. So I'm putting it here! Because n̶o̶b̶o̶d̶y̶ ̶i̶s̶ ̶g̶o̶i̶n̶g̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶s̶e̶e̶ ̶i̶t̶ ̶a̶n̶y̶w̶a̶y̶s̶ I have free will. (Also, I had to change a few colors around because apparently some of them were "bad words" according to Scratch??? Oh well.) BG music is man_2.ogg from Deltarune All of the art and coding(And writing!) is by me.
