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Hello! Jane here. My main is @DialUpInternetAccess. Today, I'd like to talk about my experiences as a trans woman so far. I hope this encourages newly transitioned or transitioning people, both transfemme and transmasc. Before I came out, I was randomly hit with waves of "questioning", per se. I randomly stopped and questioned if I was really a they, and, sometimes, I felt like a she. These waves happened for weeks, and I resisted it all at first, but on March 24th, I accepted my identity. It was so overwhelming, and I was shaky, when I was talking to my inner support group. But they... accepted me. They made me feel... confident in myself. I eventually stopped caring what people thought and made the decision to come out. I have been openly trans since that day, and it has been a crazy ride since then. Luckily, everyone I've told has supported me so far. In the first few days after I came out, it was a rollercoaster of wild euphoric highs and strong dysphoric lows. The dysphoria hit like a semi-truck, in fact. Every time I had to write my deadname, I was nervous. I sweated a little, and my hands shook. It took a day or two for me to think of a name, and I eventually settled on Jane. You can see why I chose it on my chatroom project on my main. It's the featured project. Click on 'README.TXT" and just, read. So, back to the story. My friends adapted relatively quickly and called me Jane. It took about a week to get all homey with my new gender. My mental health flourished for the first time in a while. I was happier than usual. I got so so excited when people called me "Jane", when people referred to me as a "she". The dopamine was massive on good days, but the cortisol was equally massive on bad days. Time slowed down and I had new experiences everyday for my brain record. Everything was good. I was hopeful, and happy, and it was all lovely. But the euphoria simmered and faded away as my identity has become a fact of my reality. To this day, when I'm misgendered, I still become a little shaky and nervous. On bad days, this might spiral quickly and lead to worse. I'm still in the beginning of my journey, after all. If you are a trans individual like me, don't be afraid to come to me for help! I may not be able to handle everything, but I will definitely try my best to support you! I'm sososo sorry if this is rushed, but I had to get everything off my chest. Love you all! Jane out ;>
