▪ artists + writers please help me ahahah

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hello its written by @cupiemaster. had to split it bc it got long maybe unshare later.. okay ill say the help part first tbh i was pondering some stuff and realized scratch has a real goated art/creative community so i came here with my questions kinda vent sorry </3 its just very comfy here — ▪ writing: umm.. basically i really really badly wanna write down my oc lore (specifically the backstory of one character) and i literally have EVERYTHING i need and writing isnt really a hassle but the hardest part for me is to actually sit down, gain confidence, and start writing in it. - like i explained this before to someone as like, when youre trying to get into the groove between two hard tile floors its hard but once youre in it its like easy to go along the groove yk? similarly, i can write once i open my document and actually start writing. its just hard to start the acc writing until i acc do it idk - my schedule for writing is insanely unhealthy, i lowkey only open it before i go to bed (becase thats my peak idea time) and then i just reread whatever i wrote and think about it forever ToT - a while ago i also used to kinda have a small fandom w a few friends [not anymore] and like, similarly rn i got a friend whos like "yeah ill remind u to write" and like "talk to me if you have ideas bc im interested" or whatever but its not working at all like it used to and theyre not really being helpful or reminding me much and whenever i go to them for ideas or whatever i just kinda get frustrated bc theyre not really helping but just gaslighting me into tihnking theyre helping by just agreeing to everything i say and ignoring everything that i actually find important and just refuse to talk about ANYTHING heavy actually pertaining to the story's development idk :pensive: its lowkey kinda tough for me to talk about this specific character's story openly anyway because its very personal and im scared people will read it the wrong way and believe im problematic or somehting without context.. just an anxiety i have ;v; so having the discussion is helpful to understand [especially since the topics im talking about like depression and abuse are important to me that i portray them correctly] what im lacking and where i can put more detail or emphasis or what needs changing. - (also forgot to mention that im not going to share it publicly let alone on scratch before finalizing because its full of a lot of mature and dark themes.. not appropriate for scratch but i want to make sure im not portraying them WRONGLY like do you understand help) - so basically, how do i motivate myself to write without it becoming a source of anxiety? - im also really used to having a discussion as a part of story building, so without a really strong place to discuss my story, how should i approach brainstorming/finalizing ideas or focusing on specific points? ▪ arting: less heavy than the writing. im very very interested in learning and figuirng out anatomy and drawing proper fulls and poses and whatever. i am motivated but again its like thinking about doing it and not really ever doing it </3 - also a bit scattered with the way i should approach anatomy. like for my hand drawings i just looked at a bunch of references/my own hand and managed to draw it in a way i like, but its not really working for anatomy :_; i also just never knew how to approach the planes of the face either, but got help from pin interest users and once i started "studying", it acc improved my art a lot. similarly, i feel like once i study anatomy ill improve a lot and i have the potential to improve, but im just daunted by beginning to approach it lmao. - basically, how should i approach learning anatomy (specifically the structure of the body and stupid frickin arms) and what should i focus on? and like "how" do i learn or study anatomy? - rn my anatomy is lowkey just observing and drawing what i see but i dont feel like im learning anything lmao. i just kinda wanted to get that off of my chest <3 in general if you dont have any specific things to help me ive just been feeling meh lately and if you have anythng that could help me get my motivation back id love that :] /nf love you guys so much fr. ive started posting on instant gram and i gotta say the site is okayy very user friendly but the art community iS TRASH like i greatly dislike the way everyone is motivated by consistent posting and working towards either monetization or interactions (hearts, views, etc) it makes the whole doing what you like so congested for me </3 basically if youre not up to date your interactions go down and good luck getting anyone interested in your stuff. my least favorite "social" (from the ones ive used. da is another story..) i honestly do not care about the clout at all. what matters is if i have actual people who are interestedin my works, its what makes the whole thing more meaningful to me <3 art is a very intimate jounrey like that.