little rant, don't read if you find it attention-seeking or annoying when people do that. actually i doubt anyone will read this because it's irrelevant to scratch anyways lol alright so apparently my life isn't doing so well haha!! i have just found out that my childhood best friend, my no. 1 best friend, apparently doesn't trust me anymore because i tell my mom everything. i do, and that's my fault for telling my mom when i shouldn't be. completely on me lol but also, that means my whole perception on who actually trusts me and who actually likes me for who i am is wrong - which honestly idk how i feel about that. i used to think my childhood best friend was the only person that trusted me and liked me for who i am, but no apparently i was wrong? kinda confusing haha but yeah so actually i do have people who i think actually trust me, but i'm not sure anymore because my childhood best friend started typing justin bieber lyrics in one of the group chats i'm in but then went: 'oh wait, (my name) is here oops..' and proceeded to delete all of it. i asked why, and she said 'well you tell your mom everything and your phone is controlled by your parents right' i do tell my mom everything i can confirm, but my phone isn't controlled by my parents - they just convey the message to me that when they need to see my phone, i have to show them. and i did a little embarrassing thing where she replied to someone else in the group chat and my dumb little self thought she was talking to me because they said the same thing, and the embarrassment is probably why i'm ranting here, so actually my life is doing well and this was just a whole circle of me not knowing who to trust. but back to my mom thing, actually i don't really tell my mom that much nowadays. i only told her about the thing my friend is referring to because i didn't know where to say it - it's the sort of thing that people always say to tell a trusted adult, and everything in me was telling me to tell a trusted adult even though the 'secret' wasn't harmful at all. it's definitely my fault for telling my mom about it because i wasn't supposed to, but honestly i didn't know what to do with the secret because i really didn't like the idea of hiding the sort of secret you are taught to tell about to a trusted adult, from a trusted adult. now i don't know what to do. any tips? how do i know what to do with my social life irl? what /should/ i do?
