It's a loop <33 !NOT CLEAN! (I'll make a clean version soon trust) LYRICS: "I want it to be, like, messy I'm so insecure, I think That I'll die before I drink And I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me, and who hates you And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause, who am I, if not exploited? And I'm so sick of 17 Where's my f__king teenage dream? If someone tells me one more time 'Enjoy your youth,' I'm gonna cry And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious and nothing can help And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah) They say 'these are the golden years' But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived I only have two real friends And lately, I'm a nervous wreck 'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write And I'm not cool and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park All I did was try my best This the kind of thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah, ah) They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here Got a broken ego, broken heart (yeah, it's brutal out here, yeah, it's brutal out here) And God, I don't even know where to start"