I have horrible paranoia and can see myself going down an unfortunate path in the future because of it I CANT EVEN LIE,,,,, I was really into those police bodycam videos for like a few weeks recently but GENUINELY I cant watch them anymore because like. what if I do something HORRIBLE and end up on one of these.. even tho I have no reason to believe that i'd do anything horrible,,??? I dunno man, watching them just makes me think too much sighh Every time I post a rant or anything relating to the lore of a piece of media I really enjoy I have to reread it like 5 times before I post it, and then AFTER that I have to check it like every other hour for the first 24 hours of it being uploaded cuz i'm scared I somehow accidentally said something incredibly wrong and am already being doxxed I already posted this onnnn a different website, but when I was in 3rd grade, any time I had to use the bathroom i'd watch the clock and onlyyyy ask to go when the time ended with an odd number (besides 5) because the even numbers were TOO perfect and my teacher would KNOW that I was watching the clock and specifically waiting for that time to ask and for some reason I thought they'd get mad at me for that I also frequently get really nervous and afraid of like. rabies and appendicitis,, especially rabies dude, sometimes I cant go outside after dark because of it SAVE ME!!! is any of this relatable.. guy who has OCD
