PUSH YOURSELF TO THE LIMIT AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE This document serves three purposes: - Naming the neuroses that make up “Mattias”. - Recognizing these conventions. - A warning against these fallacies. ⵌ Some semblance of HARM AVOIDANCE, has a tendency to avoid situations where public opinion may decrease. Impulsive, has a general disregard for consequences of behaviors regarding rules. Antisocial rulebreaking and projection of self, yet contradicts with paranoid beliefs. High NOVELTY SEEKING, thrill-seeker with a noticeable lack of inhibition. Seeks reward and adrenaline. Severe REWARD DEPENDENCE, this is one of the more maladaptive traits, caters toward others in hopes of praise and associations of higher status. The way to my heart is through praise. Entire mental state is dependent on praise. Moderate PERSISTENCE in regards to behaviors that gain reward. ⵌ Has a tendency to get along best with those who demonstrate traits of or are diagnosed with bipolar, borderline personality disorder, or schizophrenia. Folie à deux; you are not alone. ⵌ Demonstrates Oblivious (Glenn Gabbard, 1989-2009) and Communal (JE Gebauer, 2012) tendencies. Oblivious is the near equivalent to Grandiose subtype, arrogance coexists alongside helplessness and low self-esteem. Social avoidance in many cases where social approval is not apparent and self-presentation is difficult or impossible, contributing to asocial tendencies. Narcissism is most noticeable in communal settings, where altruistic behavior is demonstrated for personal gain rather than any sort of empathy. Entitled, grandiose, and arrogant; only aids others to boost personal gain. ⵌ Has a tendency to seek positions of power; moderator, tutor, aid, advisor. I have a natural talent for influencing people. Modesty doesn't become me. I would do almost anything on a dare. I know that I am good because everybody keeps telling me so. I think I am a special person. ⵌ Raised in a protestant–evangelical–military family as the oldest of four children. Has PCSed a total of nine times over the course of seventeen years. Earliest psychotic symptoms began at four years old. Was diagnosed with major depressive disorder moderate-severe with psychotic features and generalized anxiety disorder at eight years old. Desire to become a detective or a social worker. Recognized dissociative traits at ten, notable presence of dissociative ego states taking control in high-stress situations. Notable obsessive-compulsive and paranoid traits. Diagnosis of Fibromyalgia, hypermobile-Ehler Danlos, and Becker Muscular Dystrophy at fifteen years old. ⵌ Familial history of bipolar type one, autism spectrum disorder, substance abuse disorder, and narcissism. ⵌ 315.9 307.0 299.00 314.01 305.00 305.10 296.35 296.64 300.02 309.81 300.14 995.5 302.9 307.42 312.39 301.81 ⵌ Notable presence of substance abuse disorder and bipolar type one. Usually in an elevated state of mood–hypomania–with increased energy, euphoria, and irritability. 3+ major episodes of mania, the most recent mixed episode with psychotic features resulting in hospitalization. Major religious, reference, and persecutory delusions; notable fear of a higher power and of punishment for sin. Dysfunction is localized to the right lateral prefrontal cortex. ⵌ Quetiapine, Gabapentin, Sertraline, Escitalopram, Fluoxetine, Duloxetine, Levonorgestrel and Ethinyl Estradiol, Methylphenidate, Dexmethylphenidate, Amphetamine, Naltrexone, Lithium, Aripiprazole, Sumatriptan, Rizatriptan, Fremanezumab-vfrm. ⵌ Connects primarily with fictional characters that mirror maladaptive traits. Dirk Strider, Vriska Serket, Jean-Hèron Vicquemare, Thomas Howard. REMEMBER YOU ALWAYS HAVE FREEDOM OF CHOICE
Q: Mattias, what's the point of these analysis projects? A: gives an insight on my cognitive patterns, how I process people and their relationships to me, this is how I think. I like analyzing people. I probably have something written on you if we interact on a semi-regular basis. at the very least, I associate everyone I know with one Jenny Holzer Truism.
