Hey guys, this is a chat room, but its mainly made because I just need to vent rn. if you don't wanna read its okay but its in notes and credits if you feel like listening and sticking.
Hey guys. obviously I'm venting here. so basically, I started having feelings for this one girl, she is really nice, beautiful (in my eyes) and just kind of the perfect girl I want. we used to have late night chats that would last hours on end, longest one lasting around 3 AM. so if you get where this is going, yeah. I screwed up by asking and kinda ruined our whole friendship. it sucks now because it feels like I just took a sip of poison and its lingering in the back of my throat. I was stupid and asking on april 1st, aka April fools. I was surprised when she said yes for a few weeks, she genuinely said yes for a week or 2. so I was texting her one day and she was just ignoring me, just not responding, leaving me on read. she texted and about 9:30 pm saying she doesn't want to anymore because she isn't comfortable dating. which is a fair reason. but I have a suspicion she was lying. I figured out who she likes through mutual friends, but I don't know if that's why. there's my first story. Second story chat :( So, story time, I need therapy. I keep asking my parents but they avoid the question, I don't know what to do anymore because I have issues mentally and I just want a therapist to open up to. things I want to say without my parents hearing. because AHEM, story one is still something my parents don't know about at all. And I kinda just beat myself up for tiny things, but I cant help it. I just feel like I need to vent, then maybe I'll feel better, but lets be honest, you're not as crazy as I am and I wont move on. I just cant. and another person I like has been awfully weird towards me lately but I don't wanna screw anything up, so I'm stuck in-between telling her and yay happy, or telling her and boo get dumped again idiot, or just keep it to myself, which I plan to not say anything. and gng I had a gf in 5th grade, awhile ago but I actually liked her and she liked me too, we dated for a year but I had to move. so I moved and shortly after I got a text from my best friend telling me that he started dating this girl, but he didn't know I dated her. she was able to move on and date my best friend an forget about me. I've now spent my year of 2023-2026 crying myself to sleep in depression. life sucks. it really does. Third story (short one) So, literally today, I have a friend whom I will not say a name, asked me to be a wingman. so I agreed to for fun and tried, but this girl I don't know already had a bf. he didn't know that but they have been friends for 5 years now. he asked and she basically shut him out of her life. after 5 years and it was all my fault. I could have said no, I don't want to be the end of something. but I said yes and he hates me now. 4th I've been getting bullied for being friends with a strange kid. he is big, and he is always bullied. so I try to help him and be friends with him but its affecting me. he shoved me into a desk and I fell, I sprained my ankle badly and he doesn't care. and don't get me wrong, we're good friends and we like hanging out but he has just been rude lately. I dont wanna be friends anymore but I don't know how to tell him. feel free to vent in the comments.
