okay. by the way, DO NOT hate on these people. thank these people, because they realized my flaws in my character. I just didn't listen to them, and I am in this position, that is completely caused by myself. all of these people are 100% correct. me = @algowheel (context) so for context, for the past 6 months, I have been on Aops, and I posted very low quality content. even when everyone told me to stop, and gave me options to prevent me from going down this path, I didn't listen. this is how I'm in this position. I do not forgive my past self for what I did, along with many other people. I am striving to make more high quality content, both on AoPS and scratch. for this reason, don't expect to see that many scratch posts. A grand majority of the things I did in the past, I regret today. I wish I could go back and undo those mistakes, but I cannot turn back time. However, I don't deserve the same respect. I'm also trying to improve my math and critical thinking ability, to make higher quality/effort problems, instead of low quality slop that I used to make. As such, I am taking an AMC preparation course, and doing mock AMCs every week, in hopes for AIME qualification. None of this will redeem me, at all. The only thing that will redeem me is undoing my past mistakes, but only partially, for the crumpled paper anecdote. I will never fully heal these wounds.
these are some of the things I am guilty of. 1. Low quality problems: many of my problems used minimal thought and effort. 2. Dunning-kruger-itis: many of my posts, and mocks, had claims where I didn't know what I was talking about. 3. Postfarming: many of my posts did not contribute overall to meaningful discussion. 4. Broken promises: even when I said I have changed in previous times, I did not learn anything. 5. Rejection of feedback: I rejected feedback that would have changed me for the better. 6. Egotisticalism: I used low quality problems, solving ""hard""(easy) problems so I felt accomplished. 7. Not accepting others: I still criticized others, instead of taking my own responsibility. 8. Copium: I blamed why I didn't get AMC DHR on cheaters, instead of admitting that (1) the test was easier, and (2) I didn't lock in enough 9. Not letting go of past things: I still talk about how I was snubbed from the school team, 3 months after. 10. Ragebait: I compared myself to @multpi12, even though I knew he was better; also posting "ple-e-ease" on nadat's blog.
