I'm losing interest in most things and starting to kinda hurt myself. Im tired all the time and I just wanna stay in bed all day. We've been doing state testing and my mum keeps yelling at me, saying I need to stop being lazy and get up. Me and one of my friends were writing a story, but now I dunno what to write because my brain is stupid and wont think. I was stupid and got in trouble with the law, so I can't do anything like go to D&D, the library, church(I'm not Christian, they were just nice to me and I was able to be away from my house), or go do things with friends. Its been about 7 weeks and my mum keeps saying, "You keep lying to us and doing things your not supposed to. Its not lady-like." Oh, my bad. Sorry you guys wont get me anything or let me borrow any money from when I was able to go out, so yeah, I ended up taking things so that I wouldn't be very hungry or thirsty during the day. Like, they took my cash cause I told them I didn't like the trips we went on, and said, "Well maybe we can use this for our next one." Like, you can't do that. That's my money. I can't get a job because I'm not of age and there's nothing close to where I live or go to school, so I can't say anything or they say "Well you're not doing anything to benefit this family." Like, oh yeah, I'm still young, i've thrown my life away many times cause sometimes I just wanna get in trouble for the attention I didn't get growing up cause my real mom was a drug addict and my dad drinks too much. My step mum is barely any better. She yelled at me inside a store and when I started to tear up, she said I wasn't good enough and told me to suck it up, then pushed me to the car. Like okay bro.
