You just stand still while others crumble. That was me. I still can’t even imagine how I would’ve been without this regret. I could’ve been there for everyone who needed it. Now people daily just… exist. I do too. This autopilot. This place. Through this darkness shaped an empty shell that just resembles my past form. Well… I don’t know if I can hold this. Im contemplating just… just giving up. To lean back. Let the wind rush around me as I near the ground. Well… eh. Kylo helps a lot. He really just does. But… a bandage on a wound is only temporary. The pain is returning to me. This void returns to swallow me. I stand here on broken legs… well. Try as you might. But all fall into the abyss. And I shall too. As my body rots from the inside. I’ve seen the light fade from my eyes and the weight of the world fall onto my shoulders. Try as I may. No one but me can lift the weight. But sometimes others have weight on them. And I take that weight so they live lighter. As my back cracks, I still try to stand strong on the outside even though my inside is shattered as always. The shell of me slowly slipping toward an empty mask as the void weighs down on my remaining will.
Comment if you wanna. I can’t tell you what to do. Why must life be this way..?
