after over 5 years im kinda getting bored of scratch i dont really have any gripes with it per say but i just dont get joy from it anymore. a lot of what i want to make would need to be censored/dumbed down and since a lot of what i post is abt trauma- both from myself and in my ocs lore- i dont really feel like censoring would make me feel better. hell ive had to censor myself so much on here that its started bleeding into my everyday language,, and i dont like censoring myself or my creations. and that censorship often leads to people being confused about story lore (just got a comment the other day saying that NBYLD and toxiphobia seem similar. yes there are sinilar themes abt love and freedom and creative expression, but the lore that makes them seem like their own seperate stories cannot be posted on here without me getting banned. and nothing against that commenter btw [yk who u are], if my response seemed harsh then that means i let my bad mood that day get the better of how i present myself and i apologize.) but,, yeah. i dont think ill be on here much at all, other than to talk with people (esp. friends who dont have other sites) and maybe post the occasional sketch. i am, however on pin [ username cerulean_zzz ], unvale [ username ceruleanzzz ] and for some reason th isnt working but when it does ill come back and put that username here. OH and im making a yt when im close to 18 ok out for thatttt thank you to everyone whos supported me over the years. i literqlly cannot name you all but ik people like @little-blue-star, @probablybleedinggums, @-octosamurai-, @f1sza3, @dw8dragon, @lilydoesartfrfr, @bulldogsed, @permanent-waves... i consider all of you great friends. you all have been so kind and you all are wonderful people to talk to, even in times when my energy wasnt really there. i hope to keep talking with you. things havent been easy but knowing i made so many people happy with my artwork and my advice really warms my heart. i hope i can talk with both friends and new people offsite, please dont feel afraid to say hi it will make this kid very overly happy uhh,,, yeah. this aint really the formal goodbye i used to imagine when i was younger but hey im a simple kid. ciao loves again just to clarify for friends who dont have access to other sites i will come on here to talk to u still trust <3 also warning that i curse alot on other sites haha --- holllyyy crap i drew this with my thumb and it looks like i made it after i had like 15 energy drinks --- oh btw im not allowed to disclose it on my pf but uhhh i use they/she. please use those when referring to me ty ok byeeeee love uuuuu alllll ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
