for the eldest siblings ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ because of me ⚘ unhappy endings, track 4 [ duration ⋆ 4:40 ] ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ ⚘ lyrics ⚘ i am not reliable i am not trustworthy fighting with my own problems so how am i supposed to fight for you for you ohh being born the first is hard ‘cause what you do is shied upon unless you set a good example for the young ones i’ve tried my best but it feels like i’m in a vessel of myself why won’t anybody help so, sorry in advance i know i can be mean and i know that i’ve let down my closest family i don’t hate everything i just lose it easily i’m sorry if it all ends up badly it was because of me i am such a mess these days 4-year-olds don’t understand but he won’t make the same mistakes yeah, that’s the plan the plan ohh got no hugs or advice to give can’t even handle little kids if others need to break my fall was i ever any good at all so, sorry in advance i know i can be mean and i know that i’ve let down my closest family i don’t hate everything i just lose it easily i’m sorry if it all ends up badly it was because of me i know who i’m supposed to be an older sister’s needed doubtlessly gave up trying ‘cause it’s hard to breath inside this old, gray shell of me i’ve been running i’ve been searching but winding up in the same place i’ve always been no matter how i act, smile, or speak the righteous person’s still out of reach so, sorry in advance i know i can be mean and i know that i’ve let down my entire family i don’t hate everything if i did why not hate me? i’m sorry if you turn out unhappy it was because of me ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ ⚘ notes ⚘ i remember when i first posted the original version to this song it instantly became my favorite because it just felt so raw and real. i'd never really opened up about how hard it is for me to be an older sister, who my siblings are supposed to look up to and learn from. i also just felt a weight on my back because i have to set the standard for my siblings, i have to succeed in everything so my parents don't have to worry about them, and the pressure to be good felt overwhelming, especially because i wasn't doing well in life at all. this song became a step to my healing because i was able to express bottled up emotions and many ppl who listened to it found it relatable, which was uplifting to me. shoutout to my little brother for being at the beginning of this song <3 ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ lastly, unhappy endings is on many many streaming platforms! you'll find me there under the artist name sofauria. go stream <33 ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ ep studio: ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ ⚘ credits ⚘ - lyrics, guitar, vocals, production, concept, and cover design by - recorded/produced using bl - covers designed using canva
