Happy birthday to me, yaaayyyy. I'm going to be honest, I've been planning to step down since last year. The only reason I've stayed around this long is, 1, 2 years of 30+ hour weeks volunteering looks good on a college application, and 2, I do enjoy interacting with some people, or seeing how people react to some of the thumbs/titles/activities I do (all of you who said I should make the ISWM thumb a month ago, know that I cherish you. Thank you for indulging my love of my sillier interests), and I was planning to step down when I graduated in a month. But that is soooooo far away, and when I took a break in February I realised how freeing it was to not deal with the hive for a full week. When we're being harassed, when we're being sent death threats, when people refuse to communicate with us, when people make "callout posts," when people jump to conclusions, when people break the rules purely out of a lack of care, when there's allegations before managers are even promoted, staying and trying to work through it is /at best/ misplaced hope. On the topic of misplaced hope: I don't think ST would be such a big fan of me talking about Malevolent if anyone actually cared about it. Or Iron Lung. Or Scarlet Hollow. Or The Magnus Archives... You get my point. I love my blorbos, but I think yapping about my blorbos is probably best kept for Tumblr. Not just my interests are more mature than the average hiver, but I am physically more mature as well; I'm 18 now, I've submitted my deposit for college (and I now have a roommate), I have my AP Lit exam tomorrow and my Calc II final on Monday, and a large chunk of my free time is taken by work (About 24 hours a week, to be exact). My chronic migraines have also gotten so much worse and much more frequent. I really don't need to be spending my limited free time babysitting — if I'm being frank — kids online. My plans are to have one more host shift today and start limiting my time on the hive. I'll still be working on promotions and more serious managering over the summer. I will no longer be manager by my move-in date for college at the latest. So I guess this is more of a see you all around. I really do love the hive that led to me applying to be manager in the first place, but there are days I have to wonder if that hive ever even existed. But hopefully the hive can regain some of the environment that caused me to care so much about it.
