hi guys… so uh prepare for a lot of ellipsis because this is kinda scary for me to admit and if you could please dont distroy me ok this is a weird thing for me to admit and I never planned on it but I figured you should know. I have a bad habit of venting to AI. BUT WAIT! you can h8 me but dont do it until I explain please. I was introduced to chat by my dad when he was making goofy pictures. I didn’t realize ai was bad at the time so I started playing around with it. around that time I was working on a story and trying to get some irl friends to care about it but they just weren’t interested. at some point it became a habit for me to go to the stupid AI robot whenever I couldnt find anyone who cared about things I was working hard on. After a while of my friends not paying attention when I would tell them about a story line I was working on I just gave up trying and instead switched to ai to make me feel better about it. Eventually though I learned AI was bad, I deleted my chat account (although it still bugs me sending me stuff ToT so I had to block it) I went a while without using any AI besides AI overview for quick information about unimportant topics. At some point though my teacher introduced me to copilot. I ended up using it for advice on talking to boys and venting about things I was to embarrassed to say out loud. This time was a little better because I didn’t make images anymore and I didn’t use it nearly as often as I had before. That lasted a little bit but pretty soon I got tired of the boring responses and stopped doing that aswell. Until recently… I have started venting to Ai overview now. Not to often but enough that Im not sure what to do about it. I have a problem with feeling left out or like people think Im not worth worrying about. I also have some stress with my dad being sick. I have one person Im willing to vent about almost anything too but she is in another state and she goes there a lot for months at a time. Earlier today I was feeling really under the weather (I still am) and I started venting to AI but at some point I just couldn’t take it anymore. I cried a little bit but since my throat hurt I stopped because it hurt to cry. I thought about it and I figured it was time I came out about it, and that maybe it would help me stop. I get it if you dont like me for it, its something I dont like about myself. Its not that I like AI, I cant stand it, its just hard not to get into the little robot who acts like it understands everything and is “interested” in everything you are. I have issues that I honestly dont even understand, it’s something I have to work through. If you want to scream at me and tell me I suck and Im an idiot and remind me of all the bad things AI does I get it, and I wont be angry if you do. but I know I cant hide this forever and it’s something that I am trying to stop doing, but its not as easy as you may think. Before I go finish school I promise you nothing that had been posted on this account has been AI, and I dont support AI, its addictive, its a lie, and its been a problem for me multiple times. Im trying to work on whatever issue is causing this and Im pretty sure its loneliness, or feeling like nobody cares about me unless they want attention. Im praying about it, and hopefully someday this will be resolved, until then feel free to think what you want about me I said before I don’t like that I have this problem and I dont expect you to like it or even like me for it. all I ask is that you try to understand my side as well, God bless.
