i walked out of the nursery, and looked back at the gigantic den. it was gigantic, of course. urchinclan had a lot of kits. i then looked up. the moon was slowly slipping away from its highest point in the sky. i knew this because i stood there for five minutes and the moon was in fact, falling, and not rising. why was i up so late, you may ask? well, sometimes a thing called "my-body-doesn't-want-sleep-even-though-it-really-needs-it" happens to young kits, such as me! a two-moon-old kitten. i decided to go stargazing. it was going to be my first time stargazing. i jumped on top of a tall rock structure, and sat down on its peak. i looked up, yet again. the moon was still continuing its slow yet steady descent. the stars twinkled from afar. they must be big, but i don't know how big. were they as big as urchinclan? as big as the moon? (i took a quick glance towards the moon when i thought of this.) how big it may be, it's big compared to me. i stood still there for some quiet moments. all i heard were the sounds of the various insects that resided in my beautiful clan. i spotted some more stars. they were bigger than the ones i saw before. they shone brighter. their twinkle radiated more. there's always something bigger. always something better. always something prettier. always something shinier. always something more valuable. .... it then hit me. i'll never be the best. there will always be new competition. ... i got down into a loafing position to process what just happened. a realization. ... i need some more time to think about this. i looked back up at the sky. an endless abyss. and the abyss looked back, like a reminder. a threat. a mix of everything. i blinked, making sure not to accidentally wink. that sometimes happens. for the rest of the night, i stood there, as if i was doing a staring competition with the sky's endless supply of stars. tomorrow i will realize... no one can ever be the best.
