i've been constantly put under pressure by my parents just because of who I choose to be. they want me to be interested in coquette. I'm rather interested in scene. I also once got grounded for the following reasons: dropping a fork, not wanting to eat a dish I don't like at all, having 1 missing assignment, and not wanting to be around my brother. he's a creep. now I'm getting forced to do an extra credit assignment I don't want to do. it was optional. I didn't want to do it. they want me to be at the top of all my classes, someone they can brag about, and someone they can just throw into a spotlight and prove that everything they've done was worth it. i also believe my parents have a favorite. ever since I told them I was Aroace, they've been treating me..not the best. i also have mental health problems. and they won't do anything about it. but they treat my brother like the only celebrity on the planet. they want me to be a random girl that always curses your bloodline just because I liked that stuff when I was in 2nd grade. I only get 30 minutes daily just to have freedom. but my brother gets 2hr 30min of free time..DAILY. I tried to explain to them that it wasn't fair in anyway possible. and they said they couldnt trust me. its been months since that happened and I'm still trying to prove I'm trustworthy to them. they still wont let me have more time. this is why I have trust issues. I also have very little safe spaces. it only consists of my room, around my friends, and around my therapist. every conversation feels like a decade. I cant tell them about my interests in fear that they might not like me anymore. for some reason, they support pride, but they don't support me supporting pride for some reason. I'm not straight in any way possible. I'm just not accepted for who I am. I also get constantly harassed just because I'm neurodivergent. my parents wont do anything about it no matter how hard I try to get them to help. whenever I try to ask for help with homework, they're just distracted my my brother who's 4 years younger than me. or just asleep. my birthday is soon. im excited for it. but I don't think I'll be getting much of what I asked for. just because of who I am. my parents have also been criticizing my art because it's "too scary". all it is, is just unrealistic bl##d. but my brother taught himself how to draw sleep paralysis demons, and they love it, and even put it up on the fridge. whenever I get punished, I'm yelled at, but with my brother, he's just told 'dont do that again, ok?' its clear my parents have a favorite. there are some things I've been begging for but I havent been able to get. some of them, its been 2 years. end of story.
