I need to change. I need to be a better person. I wish I wasn’t me. Because everyone says “be yourself” but when I try to, I get judged and scolded. I’m angry and passive aggressive at home because my siblings are always trying to make me mad. I’m always stressed out about schoolwork and yet I do nothing to make anything better. I say I’m fine, and I don’t even know if I am. Every time I vent to people they say I’m faking it or that I’m being dramatic. I wish I cared more about others, every time someone cries I brush it off. I tell myself that crying is for the weak because I feel vulnerable every time I’m dying inside. I’m a horrible person who only thinks of herself. So honestly..? I’m done. I’m not leaving earth, I’m just done being in a constant state of sadness because of myself. I just need to suck it up.
..this is nobody’s fault but my own. I decided to make this post when I should have just kept it to myself. I won’t act any different at school. And I won’t talk about this post at school either. I just wanted to let go of these feelings.
