Hey… so… I genuinely don’t know why I didn’t post this earlier T-T I guess life just kind of happened all at once, banner orders, spop stuff, school, everything , and suddenly making content just… slipped. Like I blinked and time disappeared. ANYWAY WHY DOES THIS SOUND LIKE A GOODBYE PROJ I’M NOT QUITTING TT I PROMISE It’s just that a lot has happened. Big exams. HUGE choir concerts over Easter. Emotional rollercoasters. And um… yeah. A boyfriend. Yes. I have a boyfriend. I KNOW. I DON’T KNOW HOW EITHER. His name is Ethan and he used to be on Scratch back in 2022 as @ethaniodarm (rip the account ), so he’s starting again as @Ethyxion. We’ve been friends since Year 7, and when he asked me out two months ago… I FREAKED OUT. Fully panicked. Rejected him straight up. Not because I didn’t like him - i do - but because my self‑esteem is literally underground, I convinced myself it had to be some dumb dare. Like. Be serious. Me??? I mean… he’s genuinely the only normal XY chromosome in our entire year. And okay fine, confession time: I may have had the tiniest, most microscopic crush on him.OK I HAD A HUMONGOUS CRUSH. He is just.... ANYWAY. But the idea of him liking me felt unreal. Impossible. Weird. It took time. A LOT of thinking. A LOT of overthinking. But eventually I decided… maybe I should let myself try. Just once. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I’M SHARING ALL THIS I think I’m just saying that even though I might have seemed really online alot, chatting with caps and all, during that whole “asking out” stage I was actually feeling really low. I kept spiralling, wondering if he’d regret it… or break up with me a week later… or realise I wasn’t worth it. Anyway. Yeah. That’s it. That’s the chaos. So yeah… I’m still here. Still me. Just a little more busy, a little more emotional, and maybe a tiny bit braver than before. If I disappear sometimes, just know I’m out there trying, growing, and learning to let good things happen to me. Thank you for sticking around, truly, it means more than I ever know how to say. I promise i will try to post more. Okay I’m done oversharing now, BYE
