What's up guys. Been a while, hasn't it? Im just gonna get straight to the point. I'm not leaving, but I'm not gonna be as active. If I'm gonna be honest, Scratch has been awesome and everything, but i just dont find relaxation in it anymore. I used to be able to come here and code when i was upset or smth and I'd feel better but it just doesn't do that anymore. I don't have as many ideas for animemes as I've had before and when i do, I dont have the energy to finish them usually. Like I said, I'm not leaving, but I just don't think I'll be very active anymore. I'll check in every now and then, maybe post if I get some motivation to, but I just don't find joy in coding as much as I have before. I've wanted to make an aesthetic account for a while now, so I might do that to try something new, but I doubt I'll talk about it on this account. I'm really thinking more about my personal life such as music, art, and my relationships (I have a special someone in my life now.) more then I have before and it's been nice to have other people to talk to, not just people I know online. Don't get me wrong, y'all are awesome, but I feel talking in person is just better for me. My mental health is good and everything, better then it has been, but i just feel i need to focus on other things. Every now and then, I get little bursts of ideas for animemes/art and I'll usually try to make them, but it just doesn't last very long sadly. I'll prolly still talk to people here and participate in a few OTA, DMCs, etc etc but it won't be lots of animemes anymore. I'm also growing in my connection in music so i've been experimenting with creating backing tracks and writing vocals. I doubt it will go anywhere, but who knows? Again, I'M NOT LEAVING, you can't get rid of me, i just won't be as active when posting. I've always had this dream of becoming popular and having tons of friends on here, but i now realize that it takes a lot to achieve that and most say that it's super draining when it does happen. So yeah, if for some reason i get lots of attention for my stuff, I might post a little more often, but it'll still be scattered. After all, what encouraged me to code was getting comments of people saying that they like what i make and want to see me grow and improve. I don't rly get that anymore tbh. To my friends, you're not doing anything wrong. You've been with me through some of my troubles and supported me. I look forward for when i post something to see how you guys react. But, I feel everyone is in a group of friends and I'm kinda always chasing after some people. I feel alone sometimes if im gonna be honest. But thats on me, not you, dw. So yeah, maybe i'll come back. Maybe i will make an aesthetic account. you never know, but we'll have to see. Thanks for reading my ramble <3 - Toxyn
