5 Years

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Today marks the 5th anniversary since I created this scratch account, and as a result, started my entire internet presence really. Wow, I really can't believe it. I almost don't want to look back and reflect on all these years, since in that time I did so many cringe and, while I wouldn't say awful things, I definitely did do stupid things. But i mean what else are you supposed to do for your 5th anniversary right? Things have changed I guess. I started out as this really little boy amazed at the fact that I could make games, and share it with the world! I wasn't really good at making games, so I switched to "art". I was also really really bad at art, but my dumbahh couldn't really tell. I also was oddly hellbent on the extermination of charmander? like the pokemon? for some reason i js hated how unnecessarily popular he was. I definitely went too far in a couple of places, but I guess thematically it foreshadowed my need to make my art about my passion, my hatred for the world. Little baby Devea just needed something to make art against, and I guess that would be fine if it weren't for how hostile I felt over an opinion of a fictional character. Anyways, basically 50% of my projects during this time were pokemon related, and I decided to change that with AYS! Remember that old trend where you'd put characters over an fnf song? yeah. after enough of making remixes of already existing ones, I decided to make my first original completely mine AYS! And now it just so happens to be my most popular project. scratch.mit.edu/projects/673119688/ or "Add yourself/your oc singing Rabbit's Luck(0)" at 427 views at the time of writing this. I remember being so terrified of the fact I was famous. I distinctly remember how desperately I tried to make people stop seeing it. I don't really know why. Oh and around this time, was my first thematic era of my life! Every year or a half, I always make my life about some central theme. During the AYS era, I was really fixated on "being special." It was honestly so long ago, so I don't remember much, but I remember seeing all these storytime animators somehow make art of their own quirkiness. Every mistake they committed, they turned into an interesting facet of their life. And I thought, "I want to be weird, I want to be special, just like them! I want to be interesting!" Honestly the more I think about this time the more it falls apart, so um, maybe I'll reflect on this more at my 10 year anniversary hahaha. I do remember how this impacted me seeing other AYS though. When I saw an AYS of a song already made that I was working on, I got so angry, because MY idea was taken! I'm not original! I'm not special! And I think I crashed out on one of them in the comments section and I really regret it but oh well. OH WAIT I JUST REMEMBERED I SAID "lol" WAY TOO MUCH DURING THIS TIME I AM SO GLAD I STOPPED THAT LOL. wait that lol was unintentional Anyways, around this time, my ocs began to form! Devin, the epic black blob nonbinary icon, and bulba, the blatant ripoff of my namesake, both now still available to view in my profile picture! I didn't really know what ocs were 100% at the time but it's fine! I also got into gravity falls, paving way to interests in other serialized animated shows, which is probably foreshadowing. I soon began increasing my art quality from a 1/10 to a 2/10, and formed my own visual style when I realized vector exists during this time. I divorced myself from fakemon, and started making a lot of just like crapposts/memes. This is also where I first conceived BAD, my (now cancelled) object show! Unfortunately, my procrastinating ahh wouldn't work on it for quite some time, so just keep a mental note of it for now. Then The Owl House ended. The show was very important to me, as my first "fandom" i was actively participating in before it ended. It shaped my sense of art, ideology, and just made me feel better. I was sad, but I appreciated it. Anyways around this time I started getting better at film analysis, except only a little bit, so what I'd do is make REALLY long boring yap sessions about things. fun! And then two REALLY important things happened back to back. Okay ones more important than the other, and that's me coming out as nonbinary! theres a lot of stuff related to that that's personal and I really shouldn't get into here, long story short, i actually wasn't nonbinary i just hated gender roles :/ And then there was every TOH episode ranked! which is important as it was a really big project, and served as my love letter to the owl house. Too bad it's really long and boring and not accurate to my real thoughts anymore. I then released BAD, which is probably the single most important thing here. It caused me to lose sleep over imaginary deadlines, and caused me to ruin friendships because I demanded voicelines. I was a really good person back then /s. But for now, the show was out, and I had nothing to- TFYM DESC IS TOO LONG?!?!