I think I have depression..... It's not bc of you guys tho, u guys are great people ='3 It's bc of people in my school and a bit more.... I always try and be a little nice and haven't told anyone except you guys just now The reason: I like to be nice and happy, but some people are just people who hate me, and get into my head, making me feel not loved or worthy of being good.... I even said something about what people would think if I suicided.... I only asked a few, but one person in peculiar made me hurt the most..... He said: "Well, you could go ahead and do that, I wouldn't care, almost everybody won't" . . . It makes me feel even worse than what I expected... I want friends, and trying to get a bf even tho I thought I almost got one..... That was a lie...... I am struggling to keep up a good attitude, but I hurt... deep down, life just sucks to me.... I have nightmares of me being lonely... without anyone to talk to....... things like that really hurt..... There are nightmares where I disappear and nobody gives a crap.... I like talking and being social, but life sucks... I get bullied and my heart gets broken even tho I want somebody to love that isn't friends or family..... I can't see a good future for myself, but I try to change it..... and people make it worse for me.... it just sucks
So..... I hope you guys know this, I needed to tell someone I need help but my parents will probably me trying to get a bf or trying to make friends online.... When really my irl friends don't care...... I'll still talk and all....... but let me take a break from projects for a bit...
