I need help. Idk what to do anymore. Please tell me something I can do. My dad has been kind of...awful. I've researched it and even before going into depth people said it might be neglect and I love my dad but....I don't know anymore. So I got 2 Cs on my grades. My dad got angry. He's forcing me to study, which I guess is good, and well he did help me but.... My friends say it's weird my dad said I'm not allowed to have extra circulars next year. I also learned that those actually help mental health though and most parent encourage their children to do it. He also calls me and my siblings lazy for all our lives even if it's not our fault. Today, as you all know, is mother's day. I was getting changed outta my church dress and my mom did a job for us to be nice and my dad called us lazy even though we had no idea. I mean I guess it's just cuz he has a lot on his plate. Plus, he grounded me from(no judging) my iPad. Even though I have a phone, I don't have anything to contact others on it besides the few friends my sister has one their. She treats it like it's hers even though we're meant to share it. Idk. They're so proud of my sister with her straight As...Idk. I feel dumb. Maybe it's also cuz I'm hitting puberty and hormones? But idk. I fell upset just seeing him. I've felt like this for...idk how long. I love him but I also...don't like him........I don't know. I don't feel safe contacting the school consulter, what fi I'm just overreacting? Every time I try to explain or talk to my dad about how he's acting he rarely listens and instead make the punishment even heavier. What should I do? Am I just over-reacting? I don't want my dad to get in trouble or smth. Maybe I should tell my mom? I've wanted to but idk if she'd listen since he's her husband of course. She works so she's barely seeing us during the day. Idk anymore. I feel sad. I feel upset. I've feel worse than ever. This week's been absolute heck. I can't say the word. Cussing isn't allowed.
