uh ranting yeah well this really isn't a rant or a vent it's more of an apology...to my friends mostly. I wanna say that I'm sorry for not really being there for you guys when you were down. you guys are always there for me and I haven't really been pulling my weight in the friend group and have been more of a mess really... you guys mean a lot to me, like you're basically all I got. now I haven't really been telling why i've been so depressed lately is because my parents have been fighting a lot... I feel like i've been stuck in the middle of it all and it's been a really painful time for me... now this doesn't make an excuse for how i've been treating ya'll... I just need time to get through this, between trying to keep my grades good and trying to help everyone else I feel like I sometimes forget that I need some help too... honestly I think I'm gonna ask to get some actual therapy to deal with my problems and to stop being so venty all the time... I feel really guilty about relapsing, but I'm trying to go clean again! I hate seeing ya'll constantly worrying about me and I want to fix that. I'm going to try to actually get better and also help you guys out the best I can. I hope ya'll understand :) - Fandom
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