I got like 3 gifts... and only one of them was something I wanted. I'm not trying to sound ungreatful cause that's not it, it's just.. not what I'm used to... I didn't even really ask for anything. Mainly cause no one asked what I wanted, and I feel selfish and narcissistic whenever I bring up my birthday without someone asking first. The only thing I directly said I wanted was Tomodachi Life which, haha, I didn't get. I had a whole list because I KNEW someone would ask, and they didn't. And I feel stupid and selfish. There were some things that I REALLY WANTED and maybe it's on me that I could never.. ask... I know it's stupid. I just... I'm sooo used to genuinely getting stuff that I asked for (mainly plushies and clothes) and I didn't and I feel like I was forcing so many smiles because I didn't want to dissapoint anyone. And my parents were excited. I wasn't... It's not fair atp. And to make matters worse I broke down sobbing in my mom's arms because I miss my dog. It was stupid. I just cried so freaking much. It's been 8 months since my dog was rehomed. He was my best friend. I hate that I still cry over it. Also my mom told me she's going to quit being a nurse. I'm happy for her because it has a SERIOUS affect on her mental health and she'll be better after she quits. But she's a single mom and that means we're going to lose a lot of money. And she says she'll work at the gym but originally her plan was to not quit until she made a lot of money from her book. So we're going to be loosing a lot of money and it's just really scarring me because this isn't what I thought... Anyways Sorry about this. You guys probably see me as spoiled and what-not now. I'm sorry. This + one of my (only) close friends not remembering is just too much for me. Idk why I care so much. I'm sorry I'm like this. I'm sorry this is my only place to vent without it being seen by my parents. I hope y'all had a good day. Thanks for reading <3 - Alex
