Hi guys for the rant look here: I'm genraly scared, I no longer know who to trust and who not to. At school most of my form/ class hates me.They give me so many exams. I know other ppl have it worse but it feels like the only friend group where I acc fit in is in another class. At home I keep on having to mask and restraint myself from the real me. It feels like all my best friends are online. I have too many secrets and no longer know the REAL me. The only life I acc know is the daydreams I escape to the ones that will never come true. I can't even cry anymore bc when I do I get panic attacks and there are times where I actaually start hating my self. I told one of my friends part of this and she said to live for marvel, star wars and taylor. Honestly, idk if I even want 2 anymore the only reason I've not gone completely overdrive is bc of my 'daydreams' , storys I make and taylor. The daydreams and storys are based around marvel and I jst...I'm hating myself so much know it feels like I have everything some ppl ik want but it feels like everything that is mine isn't. There are times where I want to run away, times where I just wish the mcu was real and times where I feel like I'm 15 or 16 instead of 12. There's litarlly only one person I trust now. I'm rlly sorry for anyone going through anything simillar. I'd say ik how it feels but that never helps (at least in my experience). There's more I want to say but I will later.
I'm sorry </3 @Ilovepandas99011_12 thank you for litarlly every thing you've done with/ for me bestie. Conclusion: MY ALTS WILL BE IA NOW!!! (mabye even delted) Rant summary: Idk who to trust. School is getting too much and I don't rlly know where to fit in... At home things are worse and I need to mask and hide the real me. My perants barley know me. I'm starting not to even know the REAL me...
