Okay so like I was doing some research about different disorders so I could write characters with different personality disorders. I was researching borderline personality disorder and um... I have ALOT of the signs/symptoms of BPD. I always knew I had some sort of mental disorder, maybe autism or adhd, possibly both, but when researching BPD everything just matched up with my actions and some of the ways I can act. I can definitely see it now as I have REALLY bad emotional issues, and these issues with my feelings and behavior goes way back to when I was around 4 years old and starting school. I think my behavior is why I only had 1 friend back in kindergarten because everyone else was either terrified of me or just straight up bullied me. I know it's commonly seen in older people, but in certain cases there have been people younger than 18 diagnosed with BPD. I do struggle alot with my emotions and keeping relationships stable, aswell as having impulsive thoughts. And honestly alot checks out because when I was a kid, my parents were barely ever around, so I was kind of stuck alone with 3 older brothers, my biological brother didn't really interact with me, one of my 2 half brothers was usually asleep during the day because he worked at night, and my 2nd oldest half brother just kinda scared me and told me to do things by myself while he played video games with his friends, and being in an unstable family is one of the causes of BPD in kids, and in my case literally nobody was ever around to spend time with me at all.
