recently I just feel...unmotivated, I struggled doing things I enjoy, I even can't go through my favorite classes without stress. My mom pressures me about school as soon as I get home, not giving me a chance to rest and take even a small break from school. I'm pretty sure she doesn't even understand depression, and keeps forcing me to do things I don't want to. I'm the only kid without a smartphone in my entire grade, and my mom is glad about it, yapping about some "screen time" bullcrap. Plus, she threatens to send me back to china, which I searched it up, it's illegal. At school, I can now barely listen to the teacher without thinking about my own terrible life. I only have 2 friends in the entire school, and both of them are too busy talking to their own friends to be bothered about me. And no, I can't just find new friends. My school is as tiny as an ant colony and everyone already has their own friends. Everybody is still annoyed at me for some reason that I don't understand, and every day I have to watch as my friends talk to each other, laughing, having fun without my participation. I hope some of you could understand me and somehow cheer me up or sum because I don't know what to do now. I just feel useless and a failure. I just can't decide whether to do something or not. I just don't feel like it, I just don't feel like doing anything.
